Today, I have the privilege of presenting my wife as my guest blogger. Leanne and I will be celebrating our 15th anniversary in less than two weeks. We’ve been through a lot together over the years, and I look forward to the adventures that lie ahead. Her thoughts below are extremely insightful while being very transparent. Leanne doesn’t blog at the moment, but your comments and feedback may help spur her on to share more of her life and story.
This week I took a day off and went to the beach. This is something I used to do a couple of times a year but recently haven’t done for quite some time. So, it was a big deal to me. I filled up my tank with gas. I packed a picnic lunch, and figured out my directions. I put my tunes in the cd player and started on my trip. I didn’t even get on the turnpike when there was a detour – right at the start of my trip!
It reminded me of how this past year seemed like a detour in many ways.
- I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after being treated for a bipolar/postpartum psychosis diagnosis for 10 years. My doctor encouraged me to get a second opinion and when I did, the diagnosis was postpartum psychosis. So, I came off my medicine and gradually began having symptoms which led to a severe reaction. I have spent a lot of the year recovering but have found a greater understanding for people who deal with mental illness but also special needs in general, especially as they relate to children.
- I decided to resign as my position of our church preschool director because I missed the children. I found myself spending most of my working hours behind a desk instead of with the children I love. Through tutoring and subbing this year, I have rediscovered a passion to be with students in the public school.
- We had to put the trip of my dreams – Africa – on hold, but we have a greater resolve to make a difference in our local community as a family. We are excited for our service group to start-up again this fall. It was also a lesson of control. We quickly learned how much we are not in control of our lives.
In all these things, I am now able to look back and see God working for the good in all things. At the time, life seemed like a series of detours. A friend asked me the other day if life made sense and for the first time in a while I was able to say that yes, right now it actually did. That doesn’t mean that life is without problems and everything is perfect but there’s faith, recovery, hope, and the support of family and friends.
What detours have you experienced in your life? How have you seen God working good in your life through the ups and downs?(I’m looking for guest bloggers to share their “stretch marks” here. If you’re interested in becoming one of my guest bloggers, please drop me a comment, so I can get in touch with you.)